The other night, amid a cloud of gloom, I considered letting go of this blog once and for all. For a while I've found it hard to find things I think are worth posting about and also struggled with my own little mind monsters that make me overly critical of quite a lot of things I do. It all stems down to the fact that a few years ago I lost every scrap of confidence I had, even though I am excellent at faux-confidence. Suddenly I understand why I've not been able to hone down one specific career path, because I just don't know what I'm good at. I have a sort of idea but I hate that "Jack of all trades, Master of none" thing. I want to be really, really good at something.
So I'm trying to figure it out. I'm about to venture down a path and I don't know what I'll find at the end. It's scary, exciting and if you don't push me I'll run back the way I came. I emailed some of you to ask for advice on how to get to where I would like to be. I still haven't decided on how I'll get there. Sometimes I feel like I'm floundering a little...a lot!
I decided to keep blogging because I couldn't bear the thought of giving up this wonderful community of people who are so darn helpful. Bloggeroo's, I think you are awesome.
Apologies that this is a me, me, me post! We've all got to get this stuff out and ask for help, right?